DEEP DIVE

The fall of love, the fall of me 

You couldn't see me through the stars That's the hypocrisy, 

I walked a long way to see how you feel, but you couldn't even see my trembling heart beat. 

The fall of love is the fall of me Now I walked along the shadows to see the hope of seed. 

Ripping my shell along the way And trying to escape the fake reality that i myself create. 

It feels like swimming in the depth of the sea in the dark alone trying to reach the surface to be rebuild.

Desolated in the deep thoughts, Divided between the reality and the dream

Connected between the unwanted places 

Removing myself from the hopes that I created Crying along the way with feet's full of blood 

Carrying the damage to embrace what I believed 

Rebuilding is hard and its getting hard to breath 

Rectifying my beliefs to rebuild myself to endure the pain and reconnect myself. 

The fall of me is the fall of love And Evolution is to rise above. 

~Rorsch

Scratching out of life 

Holding on to scars 

Screaming out of my mind 

While holding on to the bars 

Filling up my thoughts 

Dreaming about the stars 

Breathing up the way out 

With the little bit of my heart 

Shivering through my spine 

With my broken heart 

Understanding the life 

With body full of scars 

Digging into the world 

With hands full of blood 

Clutching through the bones 

To find where I actually was 

Demanding proof of life 

Destroying who I was 

Now living like a stone 

Sewing up my heart 

Enlightening my soul 

With every bit of scar. 

~ Rorsch

Let the devil speaks about me.

Let the angels die within me.

Let me hide myself behind the devil that speaks for me.

Cuz the world doesn't deserve the real me.

The judgemental will speaks the truth about themselves which they cant accept.

So, let them judge the devil within me.They can't find me until they find themselves. 

Its the harsh truth which cannot accept.

Yes, I hide behind the devil within me, it speaks what people want to hear cuz the world doesn't deserve the real me.

So, i hide behind the devil within me.

I hide behind the devil within me.

~ Rorsch

YOU FEEL THE PAIN,

YOU NEED THE RAIN, 

YOU NEED THAT LIGHT WHICH FADE AWAY, 

YOU NEED THE DYING STAR,

THAT NEVER FALL, 

ROAMING AROUND IN THE HAVENS, 

SEARCHING FOR A PLACE TO DIE BUT IT AFRAID OF TURNING INTO THE STONE, 

ITS ALREADY SHATTERED TURNED INTO PIECES BONES, 

IT WAS THE GREAT DREAM OF THE PAST WHICH IS ALREADY GONE, 

NOW YOUR TURNING INTO THE ASHES OF TOMBSTONE, 

DAMNED PEOPLE JUST LIKE A HOPELESS PAWN. 

YES, YOU NEED THE RAIN, 

YOU NEED THE PAIN, 

YOU NEED THAT LIGHT WHICH FAD-AWAY.

~ Rorsch

Look I'm dying, thinking how i end up here. 

I never thought my time will ever come, 

Now my eyes getting heavier, my soul is ripping from my body, 

I see myself buried 6 feet down. 

Calling out my loved one but no one can hear me anymore. 

The gates of hell are opening, I saw my demons laughing at me, the devil whispers in my ears that he won and this is my destiny. 

So, the finally the fate have found me, 

I am tearing myself apart ripped my heart out looking where i was wrong, calling out the one who made me. 

Now im shackled by the chains of fire, 

Can't escape this reality, hitting myself thinking like I'm dreaming, 

Covering my ears from the noise of rage and suffering but nothing is working. 

Suddenly the sun shine and woke me up from that reality. 

~ Rorsch 

I let myself drowned in my sorrows, 

To feel the pain that I once borrowed, 

To feel the shadow that once walked alongside of me, 

It betrays me as the sun do. 

I swallow the pain which shiver's through my skin, my blood rush's my heart beat trumbles. 

Thinking about those memories which I never really wonder, 

I end up writing them believing that they will let me go 

but it made me a person I never know. 

~Rorsch

In this world we're judged and defined by the color of our skin and the type of cloths we wear, 

That's how much humanity we have left in us. 

It doesn't matter how much good a person is they still have the nature of judgemental, 

Just the belief is different and the concept of judging other's. 

I am one of those people's but the difference is who ignore that nature or who act accordingly. 

I believe, we are not suppose to act according to our judgemental nature we have.

I believe that we don't have the right to judge people 

But ourselves that's where we can put our judgemental nature on the right track 

Which make us more humans and recreates the humanity within ourselves. 

~Rorsch

The screaming city, The burning buildings Which cracks the ground 

The ashes of the dead whispering you, "Don't fall down"

The ground is shaking and the earth is screaming, 

The call has begun which shatters the souls, 

There's no escape from death cuz everything has an end.

Look at the sky the end has began The fire is filled with rage which destined To burn this ungrateful world filled with UN-thankful hearts. 

This is the punishment from above which they can't surpass, 

They are looking in the sky with fear in their eyes now all the doubts have disappeared from their mind

The eyes are opened and bridges have burnt, 

Now there's nowhere to run, swallowed by their sorrows, crying on the ground the never ending pain has just began.

Is it a dream or reality? They are damned by spirituality. 

Gathering and running away from judgment, 

But can't be helped now,The truth has come with the darkness of eternity.

~Rorsch

Who was he? why and how he survived? why he was alone or is he? how long it been? which year or date is he living? these was all the question running round within his mind. 

When he cry crystal fall from his eyes when he look at the sky all he see is it filled with the blood, he was living in a dark world where he doesn't know why and how all this happened. Woke up in the blood in the middle of the burned jungle doesn't know the cause of destruction which cause all the extinction, shivering in the nights alone, as there was no one but still he felt there were someone watching him in the dark. As he traveled miles all he found was destruction, but he had to survive to whatever it means to find answers and how was not dead? he ate dead animals and some alive which he rarely found. 

Although darkness consumed him darkness was no stranger. He sometimes got lost in thought, sometimes he felt alone but somehow he always found the strength to keep moving forward. In a city left destroyed, he created what was needed and in a pitch black sky he painted stars, in a place where there was no sign of life he planted a seed of hope. In a quiet city he added a voice a rhythm. 

For he was the last survivor, he had achieved what humanity had not in many years of existence. He did not see the darkness as a weakness he saw darkness as a source of opportunity, for as humanity says 'Even stars can't shine without darkness, What saved him is that, he never gave up And truth is that, although there was no sign of life, he was never really alone Not all companions are visible you know? 

~ Rorsch & Eternal_Starlight 

Smoky reality within the darkest of mind 

Hard to explain the demons which can't be defined 

Dwelling within the dark spirits which hide beneath the stars 

Dying and turning into ashes but they don't fall 

Roaming around the galaxies astray in the back of my head, 

Falling on my back and turning me into a shrine, It gives shivers throughout out my spine, 

Their whispers lifted me up to the galaxies of forgotten truth 

Telling me the stories which have not been defined, 

Their screams which I can still hear in my mind, 

Their shadows will follow me until I shine. 

~Rorsch

People are so weird, creating problems for themselves by making the wrong choices and when they face failure because of those choices they put themselves in depression and start blaming others for the hell they themselves created. They don't want to face the truth themselves for the wrong choices made and keep repeating the same mistakes over and over hoping it will work for them someday but keep falling for the same trap over and over again. They start creating hatred in themselves for the other's because they start believing their life is bad because of the wrong people around them but that's not the case in reality they don't wanna see how wrong they are for the hell they themselves created. 

Listen, this is you who is wrong and for all the problems your facing, for the depression that your having and the hatred in you ,its not anybody else, its you, your the reason, your afraid of making choices your scared for another failure so you have stuck yourself in one place, stop blaming other's way about you and learn who you are, facing a failure is not a big deal, you need to learn to change, you need to learn to be strong so you can face the failure and don't be scared of making another wrong choices because every time we make different choices we always chose better which we have faced before because that's how we learn and that's how we grow. 

For the change you need to be strong and to be strong you need to have dedication and confidence even if your choosing something wrong you need to be confident to face the consequences for the choice you have made and when you face them you need to analyze yourself where you were wrong and correct yourself at every step you take to make better choices.

That is how we grow by making wrong choices so, don't be ashamed of your fears show them proudly and never regret about your choices but correct yourself every time you make new one. Know your potential and know your limits and never forget who you were and when you see change in yourself pass this message to the one who need it. 

~Rorsch

The redemption I seek 

The path I penetrate 

The destiny I create 

Following the shadow that held behind my back Carrying the demons which defy the reality I face 

Deforming the truth from the lies that they whispers 

Fighting myself to connect my inner reality to which I relate 

Causing the destruction along the path which I seek 

Destiny is the thing which walks alongside of redemption I seek 

Demanding the reality through out the way which destroy the truth that I made 

The redemption I seek, is through the path I penetrate, to build the destiny that I wanted to create. 

~Rorsch

I've seen the million stars crashing together and falling apart piece by piece they cover the sky, 

I don't want to believe but its hard to deny. 

Its hard to deny the light that light up the million skies, covering my ears from lies, which makes me deny myself. 

I feel like I am living in disguise. 

I have seen history collapse within a human mind, through the contradictions,

Which end up making them divide, clearly neglecting the past, I don't know what else I have. 

By concealing the past, its hard to purify the reality that we have. 

Creating their own illusions by believing that they never fade away. 

Its hard to purify the spirituality with the absence of truth. 

Barking like a dog in the middle of the road that's what they say when their reality you spoke. 

Delivering the messages from the ashes of gone, they cannot deny the darkness that they own. 

Spiritually creating the massacre in the world and blaming the one which they never believed existed 

But its hard to deny the past which is believed to be never contradicted. 

Connecting the stars in the end you watch me fall apart, ripped my bones, crush my skull, bury my flesh, let the earth have me. 

In the end you won't be able to deny that I was not alone.

~Rorsch

By ringing the bells by ringing the bells 

She will will come to my grave 

I will see from a place to embrace and will touch you with the memories of abandoned grace. 

Clinging through the dirt she will never leave my grave, 

Crying out loud my name which echo around the whole place. 

The angels will see and weep, the sky will bleed which fills in the empty space. 

The earth will crawl and the shadows will fall there's no coming back 

That's the harsh truth that she needs to embrace. 

By ringing the bells by ringing the bells the sun will fade away, 

The wind whisper inside her and pulls me away. 

~Rorsch

I couldn't sleep tonight, I don't know what I am thinking, these broken and in-complete thoughts just won't let me sleep its like an echo in the abyss and I'm following that echo trying to find my way out but it feels so disturbed too, I'm alone but why it feels like so many eyes on me, the thoughts made me feel like I'm lost in the echo where my feelings went numb and its hard to figure it out the purpose of me, the right place for me in this world. It's hard to connect myself within me, its just feel hollow sometimes but I'm still breathing. 

It's strange? isn't it? we live and we die but never actually thought about dying and we don't even see when it come's so quickly, its funny how many of us live just by thinking how popular they wanna be and they tryna do what others done in order to be famous and you see what community does with these kind of people ? 

I'm talking about the people on social media I mean "us" we promote that all those stupidity and rubbishness these lil people do offensive things to others or to earth etc (you know better what I am talking about) to be famous and we promote that again "we" which make us worse then these scum we never notice and we laugh behind those screen we promote these people that's what we do. 

We laugh on others when its our time it becomes offensive, this is selfishness and we never even think about it, this skin color is just a refection of light or we can say the illusion of light, we never realize that and start being arrogant on the color of the skin its just some dark truth, lets talk about something else like? well there's more always more but for now I leave that on you and I hope after reading all that you will re-think and regrow in a better way. Always remember we will never know the light until we live in a dark long enough to realize and look for the comet of truth of ourselves. END QUOTE.!

~Rorsch 

Those things that make me stay away 

I can’t explain those things that made me astray 

My body feels like a living dead, 

I can’t feel my senses, how it feels to be loved? How it feels to afraid? 

Its hard to explain the senseless thoughts which can’t be explained, Can’t be exposed. 

I can’t tell what droves me from the people that i loved, was it a fear? Or was it just a fate? 

Now I'm writing this to lock away my fear, to hide myself away, to experience the cruelty of this world 

To face those cold blooded people in a cold blooded way, 

Its true humans can’t create life but they can create monsters within themselves...! 

~Rorsch

I can’t be Identify, 

I’m scared to be simplify, 

Scared from the evil me, 

That it might take away my world, 

Scared of the things that I’ve done, 

Those horrible things, 

That I shouldn’t done I’m scared that its hard to live in this world and remain saint 

I hurt myself just to bury my inner reality Am I dead? Or it just these thoughts that keeps me alive? 

I’m scared to face that reality when i never die. 

I can’t live while carrying all these sins forever, 

Its hard to forgive myself in this world cuz the saint is not what i am.! 

While I'm still alive in this painted world with the black and white truth which deceives the eyes with its beautiful lie 

Just remember only a sinner know the horrors of this world hidden within a human eye 

Death is only escape towards reality and when the time comes I will die.

~Rorsch

Sometimes i fade away 

Just to identify myself 

Just to clear my thoughts 

Yes, I fade away 

Just to find the reality 

Just to achieve the spirituality 

I fade away 

To know this cruel world To understand these living stones 

Yes, i fade away To understand the people I never know 

To understand this fake reality That we defy 

Yes, i fade away To see my light again To let myself change 

To see the fake truth That never meant to Remains the same 

I fade away To understand the unspoken Truth To find the reality which lives Deep inside me 

Yes, I fade away To shelter myself in peace 

To hide myself under the Coffin of Truth and reality

 I fade away 

Yes, I fade away 

~Rorsch